The Beginning of 'It's Always Necessary'
So some of you may have heard, I have wrote a screenplay! Yes! This is actually happening! In December, I had toyed with the idea of creating my own content. Creating my own content was never something that really appealed to me. I often thought of really bad comedic YouTube skits shot with iPhones when I heard "create content". That's never really been my schtick, so I never looked towards creating content.
Growing up, I wrote, a lot. I mean, I wrote novels. I wrote sequels. It's all I ever did. I found such fun in getting lost in a character's world which I created. As I grew up and went on to late middle school and high school, I felt embarrassed by my writing, I thought it was lame, so I stopped, with the exception to poetry, which I kept very very secret. I was surrounded by books growing up, I particularly loved non-fiction. For me, fiction was hard to believe and suspend myself into. Then I found fictional films, and I held on tight to those. I am very picky with finding writing I liked. As I moved towards poetry, I found poetic novels. I am a sucker for good poetry in narratives. I often think we as humans often think in poetry, see in poetry, and constantly listen to poetry. It makes the world beautiful. So now, I enjoy fictional novels with poetic writing. A compromise. One book that has stood out to me and I now deem one of my favorites is, "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close" by Jonathan Safran Foer. What beautiful writing. There is one quote I've held on to:
"I said, I want to tell you something. She said, you can tell me tomorrow. I had never told her how much I loved her.
She was my sister.
We slept in the same bed.
There was never a right time to say it.
It was always unnecessary.
The books in my father's shed were sighing.
The sheets were rising and falling around me with Anna's breathing.
I thought about waking her.
But it was unnecessary.
There would be other nights.
And how can you say I love you to someone you love?
I rolled onto my side and fell asleep next to her.
Here is the point of everything I have been trying to tell you... It's always necessary."
When I wrapped on my role as Jenny in 'Till Death Do Us Part, director Collin Ausbury approached me between Cory's takes after my day's work and asked, "Have you ever thought about being a director?" Honestly, it never crossed my mind. Sure, I directed a one-act in high school, but was always perplexed as to how actors act and direct at the same time. It seemed impossible to me. But what Collin said that day left a little seed. Maybe I'm not ready to direct yet, but I can write.
When starting my acting career, my mom used to divert me a little bit of my path by saying, "Well you can write a movie! You should do that!" Quickly, I vetoed it. I have never had any type of writing training. Writing a screenplay is very different than writing a play script which is very different than novel writing. It seemed way out of my reach. Then I realized, nothing's out of your reach, if you just, I don't know... try.
So, on January 4, I sat down, wrote my screenplay and finished it, all within a few hours. I had no real inspiration except for Safran Foer's quote. A quote I often dwell on. So then, became of a story of two sisters not knowing how to say those three words, blending into one of the leading causes of death today, another topic of which I am passionate. I immediately contacted Collin and he filled me with inspiration, and within days he helped me assemble the crew and here we are... pre-production of our short film.
I have hired an amazing team from the Talent, to the Production Office, Lighting Department, Art Department, Camera Department, Make-up Department, Social Media Department, Craft Services, and Organization Team. I am still filling a few spots but so far everyone has been a tremendous help.
We are currently in the funding process of our film. If you would like to help in any way, please visit the website page for It's Always Necessary which is at the header of my website. The funding will go towards transportation, food, equipment, and paying everyone under Union terms, since this project is connected to SAG/AFTRA.
We are a few kids looking to put something meaningful into the hands of all. :)
Keep checking out my website for some more updates on the production!
Love you all,